DISCLAIMER: THIS IS A WORK OF PURE FICTION. NO PERSONAL RELEVANCE MADE.

I look to my left....
I stretch my hand on the right.....

I try to feel it.....
What I can feel is just void.....

Long lost....searching....
One good way....
I want to share it with someone....
I don't know whom I should see again....

I find one here....
I feel...that understanding comes along....
But as time passes by....
It's a matter of come and go around....

Nothing settles in deep within...
Noone stays along....
I wish they hold me tight with them....
But I feel the push throwing me down....

Walls of distance or airs of uneasiness....?
Have I created them somewhere....?
Or do they find it on their own....??

I don't want to question here....
I don't have the strength to answer them now....!!

All I want is that someone....
Who never shoves me off the ground....
Two moments of "real" concern....
Two words of "real" care...
one thought of "true" understanding....
Raising my hopes on the way....

I had always tried it harder....
I don't try it any longer....

I look to my left....
I stretch my hand on the right....
I try to feel it....
But what I can feel is only Void.....!!!!

It is difficult......

It is difficult to feel alone,
Yet smile for the myth that you can have people for you.

It is difficult to close your eyes and see things you love,
Yet open your eyes every moment to see them disappear.

It is diffcult to feel it inside, the pain of the words spoken,
Yet gulp your breath down to let them be swallowed within.

It is difficult to like something when you know that's what you don't want,
Yet agree to somebody's words with smiles on your face.

How diffcult it is to open your mouth when you know you have something to tell,
Yet let your words rest within- untouched, unfelt, unheard, unspoken.

Difficult is the life when you have so many difficulties to solve,
Yet try to live with them without any solutions found.